How do you view self-care and putting yourself first? This is an area that has always been a struggle for me at least perceptively. It has been a block for a long time until it dawned on me that I see putting myself first/self-care as a luxury.
It’s fascinating how our inner chatter takes over on certain subjects, isn’t it? You might be asking why I saw it as a luxury and it boils down to when you are making yourself feel small, of course, everyone and everything else is more important. Hence where the luxury comes from.
Interesting though as I’ve gone on the journey of remembering who I am the one area that I have never looked too closely at is this particular one. Whenever it would come up in conversation I would say … “Oh, I’m so not good at that, or I don’t know how to do that …” and deflect to another conversation. You know I let that one hideout like the wizard behind the curtain in The Wizard of Oz.
My question to myself was what would life look like if I removed the veil of luxury from putting myself first. Would it turn my world upside down? Would my inner chatter start being vocal again? As I sat with this I realized all would be okay but most importantly I’m worth it. Taking care of myself and nurturing myself is not a luxury. It never has been. It was just something my ego protection brain made up. Just like it made up that I should make myself small and that I was unworthy.
Circling back to the beginning of this post I would ask you, do you see putting yourself first and self-care as a luxury? Maybe your word or thought isn’t luxury but something else that your ego protection brain has thought up. What I know for me is I can no longer view this as a luxury; it has to be at the forefront. My life is meant to be lived full-on in the light and the only way to do that is to step out of the luxury shadow. Ah, more light to enjoy … it’s amazing. Come join me and see how good it feels when a shadow has to recede.