When does scattered thinking come about and why?
This is a question I have been asking myself this morning as I bounce from thing to thing to thing. I believe it varies for most people, but it’s most prevalent for me when I am not in my heart space of being centred and focused. How far it spirals after that depends on how far I have moved from centre. This morning I find myself not centred for a few reasons. Firstly, I seem to have extra energy and want to be creative but perceptively I have decided that I don’t have time to be creative because I should be focusing on other things. The second reason is, because I’m perceptively not following what I truly want to do as I’m focused on task-oriented things today. There is a “to do list” with my name on it that is looming to be accomplished. And the final reason is, because I have put myself last on the totem pole of everything else.
When I start feeling splintered like this, what I find happens is I accomplish very little. I am neither creative nor productive at completing tasks on my to do list. I typically bounce around getting only bits and pieces of things happening. You know the old … start a ton of different things and finish nothing but set them aside because none of them are speaking to you. So today to centre back into my heart space I decided to take a time out and write this blog entry to you.
As I write, I can feel myself coming back into a neutral space as to what is truly important to me. I’m remembering why I didn’t take a few minutes for myself this morning but instead rushed out the door making everything and everyone more important than me. Actually, that started prior to bed last night as I didn’t take time to write what I was grateful about yesterday. Instead I told myself that I would just say them in my head instead of taking the extra few minutes to reach for my journal and pen and write them down.
Putting myself first on the totem pole has always been a struggle, as I have viewed it as being self centered and selfish. Both of those are 1,000% judgment and not reality of any kind. What I have discovered is, if I don’t put myself at the top of the totem pole, I end up scattered and no one gets the best parts of me because I can’t fully show up. And when I say no one that includes me. So, when you feel scattered or out of sorts, I do the following:
- Take a breath
- Put myself at the top of the totem pole
- Take another breath
- Decide how to move forward
Now I can be recentered and in my heart space. No more blowing around in the wind like a fly away balloon. Your turn. Give it a try.